reflections 2004 part1

soon the hols are coming to an end. how much time flies. i've hardly have the time to sit myself down and think abt what i'm supposed to do, what i've been doing, what am i going to do. yea, maybe it's another one of those fits i get myself into and make myself think too much about nothing. hahas! yup, but really, 2004 is going to end. how much i miss all that has happened and all the fun we had, esp 4/5. i will miss u guys real much. yea, i can't imagine i missed all the chalets planned for us to get together for the final time. hahas. hope we'll still have bbqs and chalets even after we separate into our different schs. hope i get the chance to organize a bbq with yuhui on our birthdays for 4/5 too.i kinda like that idea. and i must thank my heavenly Father for putting so many of my friends in the same sch. i really love u guys. can't imagine if i were to be posted into njc. it's not the mugging that's putting me off,although that's one factor, but it's the fact that i don't get to see my really gd frens and my best friend when i move on to jc. and for rena and myself, it's going to be 8 long yrs of best-friendship (: i really like that sound of that (:(:

it has been a long yr. ppl have seen the angry me, the boring me, the crazy me, the sad me, the quiet me, the ugly side of me, and it has been a yr where my life's been constantly pushed thru so many situations, gd or bad. gd namely i got an A2 for my chinese, bad namely i had to continue taking hcl.hahas! from the pt i look at my life now. it's just wonderful and interesting to know how God works in my life. all i can say is that He's so amazing and wonderful. so many times i fell sick this yr and i can tell u falling sick is no joke. once i almost fainted n i almost thot i'd just go away like that haha. just the thot only, coz the feeling was just so horrible. guess that's the closest i've been to unconsciousness. the next big thing that happened to me was that i was so close to losing a very impt friendship just because of a childish issue. even though things will nv be the same again, but ya, at least we still talk. kinda miss all the crap we talked abt until 2am in the morning (: or even 3am. hahas then we wld joke abt talking until 6am in the morning lols just nth but crap. yea..kinda miss it...still studies matters alot now.

so many things i want to write here, so many ppl i want to thank. from ppl whom i crap with to ppl who i leave my probs with to settle, from ppl whom i always tease and make fun of just for the fun of it, to ppl who i share my joy and my burdens with. from ppl whom i game with and have no idea which part of the planet they are from, to ppl who constantly encourage me despite me not knowing of their presence.

yup, but it's not the end yet, it's just the beginning. the beginning of a new lease of life from God. the beginning when i learn to take my first step of faith into the year 2005.

it doesn't matter whether the reader understands. all that matters is that i've learnt all these and i know which step to take. (: