stressed

i'm like so super stressed up right now.

nah, it's not anything about sch work or subj combis or anything to do with acadamic. acadamically, i'm still managing, so no worries there. (: thank God! (: yups. just so stressed abt the other non-acadamic stuff. like i'm so dead in managing my time. seems like there ain't no more 24hrs in a day. i hardly get to sleep like 8hrs everyday now. jc life is so much more diff than sec sch life. and to imagine i was still happily slacking around O's...and now i'm struggling to manage my time in jc. imagine the big change. not only sch's change, seems like everything else is changing. friends, church. i can really sing "everything's changed, everything's different" ya. but then "Jesus came in, He came into my life. and i know i've never felt so good!" (: how i love that song. (: yups. pray so much that i'll just get one free day. nothing but slacking. oh ya, i've been longing for that slack day ever since the hols started. so imagine, i haven't rest during the hols yet and here, sch starts. *sighs*

*shakes head* 2005 will be a year of sacrifice for me. since beginning of the year i knew i had to make alot of sacrifices. take for eg, today, cldn't go to yueting's house. btw, so sorry guys, if any of u pass by here. so sorry i cldn't join ur at yueting's house. ya, but jeremy told me that her house was like so big..i must visit ur house one day girl! (: ya, but so sorry. hope ur did enjoyed urselves. (: ya. so much to do in 2005. it'll be such a huge challenge for me.

i just wrote this rap some days back. this is my first rap i've ever written. usually i'm more inclined to writing writings/songs. and even though i rap alot (haha) obviously jay's raps la. but anyways, decided to write a rap coz i was bored and i needed to write. but hey, it's really nothing to do with any part of my life. it's just my way, my style of writing. prob due to some influence. so dont mind me.

looking at the floor
walking to the door
thinkin' 'bout the times
all the times full of cries
when we said things nv wld change
apparently it ain't the same
no more lies said
c'mon face it
ain't that already a lie
not that i wld cry
if u turned ur back on me
that one day u'll mean
smth that's nv been
anything to me
stop ur nonsense
not answering ur questions
i ain't gonna repeat
all the words i said it
coz u don't understand
u'll never understand
everything planned
ain't working no more
coz u don't see it at all
that nothing's gonna be
as what u wld see
coz it will never come to mean
anything to me
nothing to me