cny eve

and then i woke up at 10...

didn't expect to wake up so late actually. coz i had to clean up my table and practically clean up everything that i owned in the house. *sighs* and yes! my planes!! *shakes head* i am so planning to throw some away. haha! they are so difficult to clean!! oh wells. ya, then i managed to sort out some photos and put them all nicely in an album (: real nice to collect photos..tho they cost u a great deal but ya, a one time investment = to a lifetime of ??? man..i forgot the word...ya, but i love looking at photos. they make u remember so much. sometimes too much. *sighs*

but anyways, i was supposed to go sch today. supposed to go back nhss. supposed to go out with lsn to take prints. supposed to do a whole load of things. ya but since mom needs me at home, might as well stay at home and help her. i can always go out with u ppl on other days (: and ya, no matter how bz i am, i'll always be a disappointing best friend to rena chan. haha and soon to be just disappointing.

ya, and to marie, sorry for being moody..but ytd i really wasn't feeling well. ya. haha but i won't be moody any longer la. lols it's cny!!! yaye! and things are getting so much better already. understand math better now, beginning to like doing fmath now, and starting to realise how impt physics is. lols computing? it'll always be smth for me to relax my mind (:

i'm just starting to enjoy JC life now. and if i can't continue in sa, it's God will la. but i think i'll also enjoy poly life, doing my ICT course yaye! it's not that i'm able to adapt to anywhere but ya, anywhere doesn't make a difference to me. coz i don't like studying. lols

and church? responsibilties have already become part of my life. i just need to focus on God. because it is He who can do all these things. me alone? i won't even dare think abt it. so many a times i have relied on my own strength to do this and that but hey, glorifying God is to do His will and using His strength and not my strength. it'd be totally mission impossible if i did it my way.

be it in church or in sch or even at home, i can't cope if i'm on my own. but i have such a great God who holds my hand all the way (: thank God!

i still can't forget that tear drop in ur eye. it's smth that'll scar me for life. forever. if u need a reason. that's a valid one.