why??

this is like the 2nd or third time i'm asking God this. "why?"

it's like i've just gotten used to life, the way it shldn't be in the first place. and this has to happen. like God, why i have to suffer 3 continuous blows? it's like so wrong. it shldn't have happened in the first place. it shldn't.

nevermind.

today's saturday. it's meant to be a day-off for me, but there's newcomers welcome party at canaan at 12. so ya. went church after i ate breakfast and did the games with jeremy. i didn't really help that much. coz ya. as usual la actually. i can't shout. coz like after sch started. smth's wrong with my throat and stuff *sighs* after church, came home and cut my hair. ya. i changed my hairstyle too and almost everyone says i look like a guy in my dp. *shakes head* that's bad. coz it wasn't meant to make me look like a guy. but ya, oh wells. hopefully it'll look much nicer when it grows longer. ya. but now my hair doesn't fly all over when strong wind blows. (:

after dinner went to visit my grand aunt at sgh. when i heard her condition i was like..all right..she'll recover. but after visiting her at the hosp, faith became so much more than just trusting the hairdresser to make sure ur hair turns out right. i mean, my hair is like so impt to me. it's almost the most impt part of my body. changing my hairstyle means trying smth i've nv done b4 and i totally have no idea how i'd look with the hairstyle. i was so scared each time the hairdresser cut my hair. suddenly, faith became so much more than that.

yups..then later marie told me she was with monkey..haiz stop geking me la! ya, but anyways, ya. i hope monkey stays in sa. yups. and that applies to lsn too. and of coz even better if sa stays and not move to sav. (: