gosh.

smth miraculous happened today. smth great. smth that i wld nv be able to accomplish myself.

had my 2.4 run today. ha. judging from my medical history, i wld not be able to run. haha. i seriously believed and was totally convinced that i wldn't be able to pass. i hadn't been running for the past 2 yrs coz i was bought into thinking that after the chest pain incident, i nv wld be able to run anymore. moreover, i had this 1 month mc in may. before that, i was almost sick for half of all pe lessons. haha. oh wells. but i had to run. i didn't want to visit the doc again. i didn't want to skip napfa. ha. so my decision.

yilin ran with me, she didn't have to but she ran anyhows. 6 runs. i promised her i wldn't walk but i stopped so many times. ahha. but throughout the run, i nv believed i cld complete and pass. because i nv did complete and pass. haha. i just ran. but i trusted in God. He said He healed me. washed me clean with His blood. all i can do is to trust.

i always thot trusting was so simple. no strings attached. just trusting. but today, i realise, how much it cost to trust. how much it takes to trust in God even if it's so ez to believe the devil. how much will and strength needed to trust. that's how much it takes. even risking my own health.

even tho it may seem a v simple task to most ppl, there's bound to be smth that u can't do. and this is smth that is totally impossible for me. haha. i think my exclassmates wld be surprised that i ran. i still can't believe i actually ran. God.