reflections 2004 part2

hehs. i just found out that there's a whole lot of things i haven't said in part1.haha! so here's part2! (: enjoy.

well i think the whole secondary sch life really changed me.of coz with the help of some things God added into my life.i guess it must have shocked ppl too.esp to those who knew me when i was still in pri sch and now that they have seen me again.ppl have been telling me things like 'in the past u nv opened ur mouth yet now u can't stop uttering rubbish' hahas! ya, and previously some have told me things like 'hey y u so dao?' haha!! i don't have a split personality.don't worry.but i know i'm no longer the me i used to be in the past. (:

i think the amount of freedom my parents gave me left me to fend on my own, study on my own, setting up independence at a pretty young age compared to my sis. yups, i used to contemplate on things like that, but nah, i don't blame them. so much i've learnt in my life,so much God has taught me to live, it's just amazing. the things God did and still do in my life is just so amazing. i know how it feels like to helpless. i know how it feels like to be confused and things like that. i know how it feels like to depend fully on my Lord Jesus Christ. guess it's because my parents always taught me to trust in God. yeah i do trust my heavenly Father. who else do i even trust more? it's just so amazing.really.

sometimes i just feel like crying after reading all the past entries, looking at the past where things happened, wondering why all that happened.guess it's thru these things that makes one a better person, makes u grow so much more in God.

it's like in recent years i found out i cldn't run as much as i cld in the past. yeah. took alot of MCs from the doc for napfa tests. one month 2 months passed. nah, i still cldn't run. some might say like 'wow ain't that great that u don't have to run 2.4?" sometimes i just wished that i cld even complete the run, not even passing it. but i guess God has His ways...i still took part in sports day. running the 8x50m relay. and in sec 2 we almost clinched a medal if chen an didn't fall. (: we didn't win in sec 3 though. but i really enjoyed those days that i ran.i miss that nice feeling when i run. but i know God didn't make me a long-dist runner. He made me an eternal runner. a runner who's able to have enough strength and endurance to run into His presence. (: