why?

alot has happened during the past few days.kinda like everything happened so sudden. ya, i'm still recovering from everything that has happened. like i've been crying my eyes out since the week started. what's wrong with me?? ya, but the worst of it all was when i received an sms this morning. was so taken aback. was asking God like why it had to happen? why of all people? why? ya. was crying quite badly too.. in church, in the car, during cell, svc, cldn't stop until now. quite settled now tho. seems like everything's all right with her too. just hope she's really all right. yup. for those who know, will understand, for those who don't nvm.

yups. kinda miss my friends too. esp og9. missed so many outings with u ppl and house visitations. *sighs* really shld take time out to hang out with u ppl. *shakes head* miss u guys. yups. win,wil,rach too. i know u guys won't read this no matter how much i force u. haha! but ya, miss the times spent online crapping. ya. ever since i've started sch. jc is crap. i spent abt the same time in nhss as well in sajc each day and i wonder how come i feel so tired when i get home even though i have long breaks in between. *sighs* i'm getting older. haha.

after svc went for ldrs training abt the 3+9 thing. very tired now. hahs. and i think i'll be spending the whole day at church every week. might as well camp overnight there. and nx yr i can even travel down to sajc. i'd be so much nearer lols. ya. i'm kinda like confirmed to be acl. *sighs* like overloaded like that. hahas. but since God gave me so much responsibilities, He shld have faith in me that i can handle it. ya, even so, the Lord is my strength and my refuge. who shld i fear? commit everything to God (: i'm so so tired.

marie zheng, i repeat again. i'm not jealous ok. monkey is cute. and i don't mean rena or kailing. haha!