falling

"...let your fear turn into faith!"

these words appealled to me in the film they viewed during chap's hour today. for one, it stood out coz moses said it with great conviction and power. i always feel so small and little in God's presence. He's like this big, giant God. without God i really can't do anything. sometimes i just feel like shoving everything away and just focusing on Him. He's my best friend, my Lord and my Saviour. but circumstances strengthens my faith in Him.

yea. i'm still kinda sick. not done with the coughing yet. i just hope the coughing wld go away. my throat feels like the sahara, so dry, not hot. and i can't seem to get enough water into my system to prevent my throat from drying up.

what a friend said made me think. will history repeat itself? is my life going to take another turn from the turn it took when the yr started? will i be able to handle? will i be able to cope? of coz, i'm just guessing. i'm praying so hard that things wld work out the way it should.

human behaviour. no. not about pw. it is smth so incomprehensible. smth which i can nv fathom. not that i go ard observing each and everyone, in fact i'm a bad observer unless i'm told to observe. just that ppl behave in such a way that realy annoys u. i always wonder y it happens in seasons.

yea. and i was supposed to finish my PI today. but no, i just don't have the mood for doing PI now. all those brain-blasting stuff. i can't really cope with the amount of info stored in my brain, implying my brain is small, haha, i don't really use much of my brain anyways. guess it's just there to fill up the hollow in my skull...

"...people will judge u for what u have not done..."
"...a time of stretching of ur faith..."

these 2 sentences will always remain in my head until, probably, when Jesus comes back.

JC life's not really that hard to cope with. u must think i'm joking. in fact, no. it's really not hard to cope with. adjusting ur mindset to ur timetable and using every free time wisely makes a great difference in ur life if u were once a slacker who only knew how to stare at the monitor every min u had. it makes a great difference by putting studies first. and when u finally achieve that, u'll find that actually, u do have a lot of time to rest too (:

yea. i'm just crapping on my own here. trying to get some thots out of my brain after the tedious brain-storming of PI. i'm like so drained. physically, mentally and prob spiritually.

hoping u wld come by
but all i see are shadows

only time will tell.