half time

ok. it's been eons since i last blogged.

after promos, i just didn't seem to have the mood to blog anymore. just needed to rest and play. rest lots. yea. and i haven't rested much at all. i've stopped marathoning and started sleeping alr. i'm just falling more and more sick each day. why?

i just wish i cld just fall sick and sleep and never wake up anymore. it's so tiring. i wish i literally had nothing more to do. everyday i'm just bothered by work work and more work.i need a time out. and i haven't rested since last yr. i wish i cld sleep just for a day and fully recover. but...

i wish there weren't pw, there weren't zone camps, there weren't church camps, there weren't sva, there weren't sch, there weren't exams. imagine ppl looking forward to the 2 month break. and what do i have? 2 weeks of break. i'm not counting time to study. if i did study i wldn't have time to rest alr. how i wish all these wld just go away.

all i can think of now are just things that are so not impt. *sigh*

i haven't started editing my song. i feel so bad. i think winston and laureen will be so disappointed if i ever give up on my song.

am i giving myself too much stress? i know i can't work under stress. i know i'll not do anything if i'm super stressed. but if i don't do i'll be way behind schedule and i got to rush. i don't like to rush. *sigh*

it's just one after another. i wish i cld make it stop. wish u didn't exist. but then i'll be lost. i wldn't be what i am today.

i just need a refreshing 24-hr sleep.