CRASHED.

it's 2am again. and my com is still crashed. so busted.

can't use msn on my com. i just talked to rach for a mere 15 min and it blacked out on me. *sigh* mebbe it was 'coz i was complaining to rach about my com. haha...oh wells.

can't play maple. like duh~ and i can't play sims either. because that's the main cause why my com is like so dead right now. so bad so bad.

it's just checking and checking the disk, sorting the files and replacing bad sectors. i feel like reformatting the whole hard disk BUT i can't coz i don't have a spare back up drive right now.

i thot life after zone camp wld be much relaxing. *sigh* 2 bad nights alr. and don't even ask why i didn't turn up for cca. ha. thank God i read zhi wei's email on my sis' com else i wldn't even be there in sch and not know anything about what to do. yea. and don't get me started on the docu.

been watching cartoons while waiting for my com to finish checking (that's if it ever does) and i realised that the best way to waste time is to watch tv! yes! i can't believe all my fave cartoons are shown like 12 in the morning. and i've been watching cartoons the whole day. even until 2am. *sigh*

i know i've not been online for the past few days. i knw ppl are wondering what happened to me. why, nth. my com crashed that's all. yea. and i'm not trying to avoid anything or what-so-ever for that matter. 'coz the one who's avoiding is u, not me.

besides, rena's out of town and i don't get weird calls at night. haha... it's gonna be 2 weeks of silence from her. *sigh*

well, i've tried almost everything to resurrect my com. all except reformatting.and my brain's dead. i can't seem to have the brain power to do my hw or draw. everything just seems so tiring now. yea. but i mapled today. hehs. i feel so wrecked.

smth's been on my mind lately, while i'm stoning. so many times, u've said to put everything behind and move on, change for the better, not to be bothered by what happened last time, ya-da ya-da ya-da. honestly, i've moved on alr. if u ask me i'm prepared to talk about it face to face with u. when i said i've put everything down i meant it wholeheartedly. but somehow, u keep saying and thinking that i've nv really forgotten about it. u always bring it up. i really don't know. is it 'coz u really think i'm still looking back or is it u who's looking back?

mebbe intentions aren't spelled clearly. but as a girl, i know, i feel, that it's like that.

hello? the future is in front of u. y look back to the past?