aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

i wish i were still in 4/5. then we can go wcp and scream out loud.

i was out whole day until 9. not a normal sunday for me. coz usually i'll be home by 7 on sundays. (: haha act 2 hours doesn't make much a diff. ya. reason was that my mom's uncle passed away. so went singapore casket to attend the wake. was super smoky and all that. coz buddhist funeral. or is it taoist? *shrugs* ya. then was v smoky. my eyes were tearing.

erm ya. then my uncle and aunt were discussing the issue: religion. my uncle told me smth 'shocking' ya. but he refuse to tell others. it's like smth to be worth telling others so that others won't jump into conclusions. but ya. i think i kinda understand y he chose not to. and it's like a secret i'll rmb for life. haha other secrets i just remember it for a few mins and out of my brain it goes. that's y i don't really tell ppl secrets. coz i've forgotten them all. haha. but this is different. it's like smth that'll be etched in my mind forever.

i just don't understand. why do i have to like attend a wake every month. like what's so nice to die in 2005? i was prepared for this wake in the sense that hmm i've already know of at least 6 ppl who passed away since the beginning of the yr. so like i have no more energy to feel sad.

oh ya. i almost fell to my death in church. when running down to the foyer, coz i needed to prepare the counter for the ushers, i tripped over 5 steps. i almost fell flat. lucky no one impt was there so i didn't like make a fool of myself. haha but that's not the main point. haha. b4 i fell to my almost death, God like kinda warned me that i'd fall. HAHA! but i was running too fast i cldn't stop. if i'd stopped i'll be lying in sgh now LAH. then i tripped haha. but thank God i survived the fall. LOLS. ok i sound so cmi now. i thot the curse was over. it came back to haunt me. JO!!!!! it's all ur fault!

right. fri cell is starting on april fools'. wad a day to start. and i gotta share. i think today's sharing was horrible. due to last min preparation. oh God. help me. i seriously need to think twice abt my cca. i want another slack cca. slacker than cisco. then i'll have more time for my ministries. and so i decided not to touch MM for another 5 more yrs? until i finish my studies and maybe work fulltime in church (:

i don't want to go to sch 2mr. i want to sleep at home and rot.