how awesome

didn't go youth today. and i miss youth already. :( it feels so weird not seeing my church friends for a sunday, not experiencing that kind of hyped-up attitude and worship, not seeing ps rach..haha...it just feels so weird. well, i had to go celebrate my grandfathers' birthday so i cldn't stay for youth.

yea. and it was a celebration-turned-disaster.

i shall leave out the details. but i'm thankful that rena was kinda like cheering me up just in time. haha. yea. the thing abt me is that i can sense like when a msg is coming...i can just stand nx to my phone and a msg comes in. lol. yea. but i wasn't that sad lah. kinda like used to it already. only this time it kinda became worse. ha. yea.

well. i didn't regret going for 2nd svc today. haha. i thot svc wld be like boring coz of all the older ppl and stuff. but with a different heart attitude, i guess it can just change ur whole perspective. haha. i used to attend adult svc for a yr so all the hymns are like familiar to me. and that's also y i like hymns. hah. yea. i totally enjoyed worship today. even tho the songs were like weird, slow and weird, pardon me, i guess, it was really great to worship God in a lighter tone rather than in the very rock youth worship svc. of coz it's gd to be hyped up by the music. the atmosphere to worship God is there. but the adults have their own way of worshipping God too. and it was awesome. it was just so easy to enter into God's presence and i certainly saw Jesus. haha!! nah, i didn't see His face, but i 'saw' Him. it was great. haha. just dwelling in His presence. once again, i feel His sweet presence again. (: so nice so nice. haha. i think i was just smiling there. haha!! yea.

when win told me abt how the adults worship in svc, i cldn't visualise. but i guess, now i can. it's just a different way of expressing themselves. standing there, i felt pure joy. pure joy that i cldn't contain. i was just standing there dwelling in God's presence. nah, i didn't dance or jump. i was wearing a skirt. haha. but besides that, i just wanted to enjoy His presence. ppl express joy in many ways. some in laughter, some in tears, some in dancing whereas some do not show any sign of expression, just within their own hearts. like most dads, they don't know how to show love. i guess, joy is really smth that different ppl wld have different reactions and ways of expressing themselves. haha. yea. but whatever the case, we are so not to judge them (: