without God

what would my life be without God?

guess my turning point to God was in sec 2. yes, i grew up in sunday school and all that but i really made my stand to be a christian in sec 2. and i really thank God that i made that decision to commit my life to Him instead of following another path. i could have backslided then.

hmmm... what would my life be now without God? i think i'd be this rebellious girl at home, always arguing with my parents. and i'd really be a punk, like what william used to call me. i wld have dyed hair, punked hairstyles, a super dao face, even worse than now. i wouldn't have friends like rena, marie, lsn, shane, raymond, weiping. why? coz i wouldn't have done well for streaming in sec2 and go to 4/5 and even make it to jc. without God, i'd probably have dropped hcl in sec 2, fail more subjs in upper sec, and land up in a poly, in a lousy course. i'll probably take up smoking but not drugs, mix around with bad company, go clubbing and all that, staying up late at night, not at home but outside. perhaps i'll have a boyfriend now, haha, mebbe even a couple before now. i might also be cutting myself with penknives and all that too. most importantly, i'd also probably be dead by now, without God.

wow. imagine life without God. things wld be so different. i guess i really need to do this kind of reflections often to remind myself of the many things God did in my life. He's just so awesome, yet many times i take Him for granted. :(

*sigh* falling sick alr. ever since i started studying, my body temp has gone up. like my hands are warmer and colder at the wrong time. *shakes head* so much for being hardworking...

happy birthday ronald. rofl.