oh boy

the hollies haf been great so far. well, not exactly great tho. ha. but on the whole, it's been just great. (:

when the hollies came in nov, i wasn't feeling the holiday spirit at all. shane and i were kinda lagging from our promos and everything. haha! oh boy... then we had to rush pw,i had to start to understand what my grp was doing. haha! and oral presentation was actually alright. it wasn't a total freak-out session but more of a less than formal thing.

then we had sva in between. that was a total waste of time for me coz i wasn't contributing anything. haha. so much for wanting a gd testimonial. but anyways, it doesn't matter.

rush for zone camp planning. i can't imagine how stressed i was then. the unfinished timetable, the chaotic mind and the total inconfident heart, only to put the camp into God's hands on the first night of camp. at 2am even. haha! oh wells. but still, God did a wonderful thing during the 2nd night. praise God! haha. imagine i had a hearing on tues for not going to sch.

finally zone camp was off my mind and had to prepare for church camp! yea. well, i had a heart of expectancy, but not a big one. but God really changed my thinking, my perspective of so many things. just like what EDWJ says, that when u overcome ur own doubts, u will grow stronger in faith. and it's so true for me. i counter-argued my own disbelief. and i haven't stopped hearing from God ever since, tho it's only been less than a week now.

have started to regain my passion for writing. i decided to write a song on winston's melody(even tho it already has a lyric) coz i nv felt so moved by the Holy Spirit before. it's like i cld feel God's presence even when listening to the melody when i chanced upon it. not that he plays well (of coz he plays well) but i wanna tap on this presence of God to lead me to write a song. (= a song that will not be unfinished. hees...

been so hyperactive lately. hahahahhaha. yea. and sorta mad. but i don't caaareeee~ =p

alot of things haf been on my mind lately. but God has alr prepared my heart for this. i don't haf to worry. even if i'm the only one left on earth, i don't haf to worry. i know my friends will leave me one day. but i know God won't.

yea. and to go or not to go. i guess i really need to pray abt it.