meaningless

haha. this title reminds me of the writing i did years back. brings back sad memories tho...

probably history's just repeating itself.

well, this week has been kinda a meaningless week. but thru the meaninglessness, i gained smth. haha. pretty ironic huh?

it all started when i was told to do smth which i wanted to but thot twice and decided upon not doing it. maybe the topic shldn't even be brought up. always causes me to focus alot of energy on coming up with solutions, reasons, rationals. mebbe i shld just lean on God. trust Him to lay the path for me. i've tried all i cld. i've done all i can.
understood: it's true that we choose to lean on our own understanding and not on God when we face problems. all along, i thot i'd always look to God when i meet with a problem.

hadn't been doing devotion lately. yea. v sad coz everyday i'm either too tired or just don't feel like doing. thank God there isn't cell this week and i didn't have to prepare sharing. haha. but nx week...guess i'm really worn out by sch and coming online. esp going online coz i always stay up SO LATE. i've got to kick that habit man. like limit myself not to use the com. haha. i realised if i turn on the com, that's it. if i don't touch the switch, i'll be alright. (= yea. and i've started to work on math. shldn't be a prob.
understood: i've realised how impt devotion everyday is. it means talking to God and spending time with Him, understand His plans for me and drawing strength from Him everyday. it's more than the simple prayer i make everyday.

i'm also starting to treasure worship. it's not everyday now i can worship God and sing songs to praise Him. that used to be my hobby. haha. cool. and now, it's hard for me to go for prayer mtgs also. and the reason why i always attend is coz i just want to worship God and just dwell in His awesome presence. coz i need His strength to go thru each and everyday.
understood: every moment spent with God becomes so precious to me. i try to sing songs and worship Him even tho i'm tired and i can't play the guitar. i try to give my best every praise and worship session. my best to praise God.

i'm trying to treasure my friends. honestly, i've always taken them for granted. yea. means most of u guys who are reading this. what deb said is really true. i can go the extra mile for ppl, but there are many things that are holding me back, burdening me that i'm not able to. there are alot of things that distract me and take up too much of my time, especially when i do not plan my time well.
understood: actually wil alr told me abt time management. that's smth i've got to work on. really work on. esp when i'm gonna have As now!!

yea. so much for reflecting. haha. nx week will be a bettet week (=

blessed be Your name.