watchnight

my most memorable day of every year... haha... yea. but it doesnt seem memorable anymore. lol.

well, had my sharing on thurs. went alright i guess. haha. didn't know what or how to share also coz the zone was new and i didn't quite know how to approach them. but they were all open-hearted, which i thank God for and they were pretty enthusiastic about street-e (= and i'm glad that it was an gd start for them (=

been facing alot of disappointments lately, seeing alot of stuff which i don't agree with yet i can't do anything about it. it's smth called humility that God has to put in me. i finally understood why God told me i'll be facing problems, difficulties, struggles alone. it's not that ppl will leave me alone to face them but they can't do anything about it. it's smth that i've got to deal with it alone, of coz with God's help. it's like a replay of what happened.

but i know that God won't put smth in my life that i can't handle. and He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world. if God is for me, who can be against me? (=

it's easy to say these words but so so difficult to just trust and hold on to Him. i'm glad i have the minimum strength and faith to believe.

it's so hard. honestly. just so hard. knowing that smth that was so important can suddenly be so ordinary and so meaningless, like it didn't have a value.