another day

it's been a long time since i touched a comic book. been a long time since i read chinese. walked into a comic rental store today while waiting for the gp book to be photocopied. saw a comic i used to read. well, i cheated the store of 60 cents by reading w/o paying, and i got a whole lot of things stucked in my mind now. the ending was a good one. a happy ending. it kind of brought many scenes of my life back into my mind. it ain't good.

"For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone" James 1:13

i know the decision i'd made was right. i know these consequences would come. but i know that it's not God who puts all these temptations in me.

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Corinthians 10:13

there and then i felt i really needed God. this is smth that i'd brought a closure and an ending to. but why does it keep haunting me. it's not that i wanted to bring it up. probably it was because of rach's regret that affected me? i don't know.

somehow, i wanted to open the box again. the box that i'd be hiding all this while. probably i shld have given it back. probably i should have burnt it.

if only i cld keep my eyes forward and not remember anything.

if only i cld get out of this rollercoaster ride.

closure. really.