devotion thots.

was preparing sharing for 2mr. last min as usual. it's just been a v strange week. maybe it's because the a's have started. hm..

anw, was reading edwj and it was on 'God's answers'. i was encouraged when i read it because i'm not the only one who thinks God plays tricks when He answers prayers. haha. with that i mean the answers aren't what we often expect. truely, devotion always encourages us and not brings us down because God is a God of encouragement. God is a God of love.

at times i try too hard. at times i don't try at all. at times i just give up. God has proven to be the God of all circumstances and yes, He has never failed. sometimes i think my faith is just so tiny that i can't hold on to it any longer. maybe i've been too laid back; i need to take a risk now.

times were different when i didn't have to face my fear. now, it's just unavoidable. i've been running all these years and now, i'm no different from before. if running could solve the problem, i wouldn't be running now. when will i ever take the first step? when will i ever stop running.

the only thing i've learnt all these years is to avoid the problem.

argh.