cool (=

haha. God has been pretty cool these few days. and i realised i've polymorphed the word. haha.

yea. but besides freaking me out every other day, i think God was just trying to drive His point across. it's been some time now that God once asked me why haven't i gone deeper. at that time, i was quite unsure about alot of things, like religion and all that. but i think now, it's quite clear where i stand now. of all the 'trials' i've gone through, no doubt my spirit, my heart, my soul was like totally smashed, i still can say that i've grown stronger, and my faith has much increased. i've grown to realise that i can't live without God.

and what God said to me during ps ken's sharing today was that in order to be made stronger, i have to be broken. i was quite reminded by what chenyang said on the bus on the last day of school. he was telling raymond that those ppl who use their bare fists to break piles of bricks actually train themselves by breaking the bones of their fists and letting them grow back. this is because when the bones break and grow back, they actually become stronger. and that's how the people are able to finally break the bricks.

similarly, we have to be broken to allow God's perfectness to flow through our lives and to be made stronger. like glass and clay, heat is used to melt them and finally make them harder and almost unbreakable.

i think tertiary camp, at least for tonight, it was good. if there weren't the a levels, i would have stayed throughout. and besides, i wouldn't be able to make it for church camp. so having to attend a retreat now is good! haha. yea. thank God (=