tell me

woke up today feeling sick. even tho i've been having this sinus prob since p6, it's like so much worse than that. kept sneezing and sneezing. yea. caught a cold. wonder where the flu bug came from. i always fall sick during hols. so it doesn't make a difference this time. maybe i've been sleeping too much. hehs. then again, ya, caused by some other reasons. been a long time since i last fell sick. so nt used to sneezing the whole day. maybe i might just die of flu one day and forget abt everything else.

woke up like 8 coz i cldn't stop sneezing.then watched kids central, nickelodean, disney ch, cartoon network until lunch, came online until 3 or 4pm like that and went back to sleep. woke up n ate dinner, read all my long-over-dued letters like those which the poly or navy sent me? yeaa..navy. haha! and here i am online again. and going to sleep soon. i feel so pig!! haha.yea. i kinda miss rach and win. no one to nag at me and cheer me up esp when im sick :( haha if u 2 r reading this, i miss u both!! (:(:

going to church 2mr. so much has happened during the past wk. all the emotional, physical, mental struggles. *sighs* sometimes i think to myself, i need a break. yea. but break's no gd. God told me i'd struggle even more given time to think. yea. might as well bz myself with stuff.

i can't blame anyone. i chose to cry in the rain.