why not?

yay! i think most ppl didn't realize, i just came back from leaders' retreat ytd. haha

and guess what? i'm sick. -.- all thanks to the rest of the leaders in my zone. we almost laughed the whole night playng bridge. and i think i over-laughed AGAIN. ya. coz i haven't exactly recovered from the ppym curse. haha. so ya. and i think i ate too much fried food and drink too lil water that's why. and my friends and classmates are falling sick too. *sigh* but thanks lau for teaching me bridge. ha. she said it's a thinking game but even no-brainers like me can play? hmms?

ldrs' retreat was gd (:(: really enjoyed myself totally. haha. yups. the stay at ubin was nice (: real nice. ahha. ya, but overall i think i was pretty stretched already. having to like really pia thru the past week continuing with ldrs' retreat. and finally i got my 8hr rest last night. hmms. but i fell sick. ya. but anyhows. i think God's really awesome. i didn't want to go sch today coz i was feeling so horrible in the morning but mom told me to go. and ya, mrs lim announced the half day and i was so happy (: God's so awesome in taking care of me (:(:

haha and i think all my friends and classmates were like so scared of me coz i was practically sneezing and dripping the whole day. haha! my nose almost came off. ahah. ya. then i was literally dying and all that. and lsn all went ps to eat and ps me. hah. oh wells. they even took np with kevin. OH WELLS. haha. nvm. i'm sick. i shan't be bothered.

i guess for the past few days, some things came back to me again. have i really let go of everything? i really don't know. seems like i have but i know deep down inside i haven't really let everything go. i don't know what it is. it's like so weird. the something that's holding me back practically doesn't even exists but there's this 1% of it that lingers and it keeps growing the more i think of it. *sigh*

i almost cldn't sleep the night at ubin. just like what i told deb - conclusionless. but ya, everything's like in the past already. no pt raking it up again. if i were what i was 3 yrs back, prob things wldn't turn out this way. it'll be worse instead.

i still rmb v vividly it took almost a yr for me to get over the first experience. prob this wld take a lifetime. but i don't know .coz my future's in God's hands (:

ha. poor win. if only there weren't wars during hols right? haha! ya but anyways, nice song (:

ru guo dang chu bu ren shi ni, ke neng jin tian jiu mei you zhe yang de jie ju. wo zhen de fang qi le ni ma?