so wrong.

thursday was such a wrong day. from the minute i alighted at aljunied everything went wrong.

well, of coz, not that the prayer mtg was bad, it was good. indeed, Jesus said "it's not the healthy who needs the doctor, but the sick ... for I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners." Matthew 9:12-13. i didn't go for prayer mtg becuse i'm holy or whatever, but coz i really need Jesus.

yah. thursday was such a wrong day. be it my attitude or what i really really hope it didn't affect anything or anybody or whatever. i hope alvin doesn't get any wrong idea. from the look in his eyes, i can't imagine wad he might be thinking. i hope u didn't get the wrong signal either. eveything was just so wrong. how i wished that day i was sick enough to miss prayer mtg. *sighs*

i keep reminding myself that it will not happen again, it'll not happen again. but now i'm so afraid that history will repeat. i hope and i pray not. *sigh*

it's all so tiring.

then jake was just asking about when everything fails and everything just doesn't go right, will u forsake God? i'm glad i didn't. i'm glad He saved me from the pits. i'm glad i'm still alive. i know that even for the nx time, i'll still hold on to Him for all the things He has done for me, for everything that He did. He'll never let me go. even how tired i am, how lowly i feel, i know He's there. it's scary when ur alone. it's scary when everything just doesn't go right. but it's so great to know that God is there. He's there even tho u can't see Him.