mood

i'm so in the mood to write. ahahaha...after spending 2 hours on my gp essay, i'm in the mood to write! ok. 2hours was VERY long. yea. and now, i twisted my finger too. i really have no idea how it got twisted. ya. daddy rubbed it with tiger balm.so shiok now. haha!!(=

i psed william twice. haha. oops. but ya, had stuff to do so i cldn't make it. study plan has failed. haha...

well, there are certain issues going around. i'm not proud to announce whatever the issue is and i'm not happy even if i am commenting about it.

sometimes, it's so easy to forgive a non-christian for the fact that they do not know God. it is yet difficult to forgive a christian because of the very fact that u have expectations, too, of how a christian should live. just a non-christian would judge a christian as being 'holy' and 'blameless' and of course 'sinless', we, christians, too, have unknowingly adopted this judgement of fellow christians as being 'righteous', 'loving' and 'pure at heart'. somehow.

but we're all human, aren't we? human do err. but, as christians, do we live a life similar to that of a non-christian? because of the very fact we have a personal relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ, we do not and cannot live a life similar to that of a non-christian.

i'm not trying to make a distinction between non-christians and christians here that christians are prime and holy beings. christians do make mistake. but we have a choice whether we want to make the right decision or do the wrong thing. actually all of us do.

after making this big round-a-bout, everyone do make mistakes in life. do we bother to find out why or how we made that mistake? do we try to salvage the situation? do we take a step back to look the whole situation in a bigger picture as to why things are happening this way?

i chose to step out because i'd made my resolution that i didn't want to be involve in anything after the last competition. it's too taxing. here am i struggling with my own studies and with my committments in church, i can't possibly be involved in any political debates that were to happen. everyone will think that he or she is right and who am i to side? i'll stay by the fence of course. because i'm a christian, i don't judge. i may comment on smth bad abt a person but i'll know the person's gd points too.

haha. wad i told winston was really true. ava changed me. alot. in the past, i wldn't have the kind of perspective i wld have now. if it's the political aspects that i'm worried about, it's everywhere and anywhere. it's an ugly sight when u choose to make decisions. u can never come to a compromise because of frivolous people present. if one were serious enough, there wouldn't be childishness and immaturity present.

aye, again, the point i'm driving at. why can't people be more matured? it's this thing that has been bothering me since like forever. why can't people grow up? why can't ppl think deeper? why are people so narrow-minded? why are people actually so ignorant? why can't ppl be more considerate? why can't teenagers think?!

education has resulted in the narrow-mindness of the society.

ha. probably rach's maturity got to me that's why she's becoming more and more childish each day. haha...