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had a quarrel with my best friend early in the morning. at 5.45am, just when i woke up. of coz i was angry. ha. but He had His reasons. of coz i had mine too. that's y i felt lousy the whole day. esp during chapel. "how great is our God" is a very annointed song, yet i cldn't sing it with my whole heart. coz i was still angry. i felt i was paying lip service to Him.who else will be so daring to be angry with God.but i really was.

the worse part was that even tho i knew God wld forgive me, i just didn't want Him to because i was afraid it'll happen again. then what's the point of confessing my sins and asking God to forgive me again, knowing i will sin again.

but of coz God showed me alot of things, spoke to me about alot of things. the whole prayer mtg i was just conversing with God, not exactly worshipping Him when we sang songs. but that was cool too.

well, God spoke to me about some other things as well... and it doesn't mean i'm foolish if im obedient. i just want to obey God.

there's just so many things that i don't agree with. and i think i'm growing up too fast. so much for reading too much.

i realised that there are actually so many things i want to do. so many things that i'm fond of doing that i haven't been doing. i feel like i'm missing out alot in life. and i also realised that when i focus on the things i'm doing right now, i'm also happy and satisfied. (= i guess it's a matter of perspective and how convinced i am to change my perspective of many things in life. am i willing?