i serve a cool God.

yea well, i slept at 3am last night and i only woke up at 6. and i was late. but thank God i managed to catch my bus to reach school in time for cc duty. but i was super tired. initially i thot i wld have only 2hr of sleep but i overslept till 6 and my mom thot i had no school. ha... early morning rush.

was v tired, had a terrible headache. even tho i only realise now, i thank God for healing my headache. haha. it was terrible in the morning. (=

sometimes it's really good to mix ard with ppl who are always so happy, so joking. it wasn't a taboo to laugh and crack lame jokes again, but it was just different. it's easy to be myself again. but happiness is different from joyful. when i'm happy doesn't mean i'm joyful. happiness doesn't last but joy does. and i know my joy comes from the Lord.

maybe i may never snap out of this thing, tho i know one day i'll inhale deeply and forget abt everything. but God was cool today again(= going for prayer mtg was the best decision i had made today. even tho i went in rushed and unsettled, i cld manage to just worship God. God was really really cool. He showed me this road. from plan view, the road was a vertical path which had a junction to the left. however, from the driver's point of view, all he cld see was just that vertical path that seemed like a dead end. that driver didn't know that it was actually a junction coz he cldn't see the junction. i know God is telling me that i don't see it the way He does. i dont know the ending but He holds my future. He'll be with me along this straight road. i know. right now, God is this loving Father who is so silent yet knows my every need and He didn't have to say a word to make me feel assured. God just did what He had to and it was all that i needed.

how amazing is to feel that God knew what u were praying for and answered ur prayer even before u started saying "Dear Heavenly Father". and everything just happened in split second. just so cool.