worrying.

before i even start, let me remind myself: worrying is a sin.

i have this very weird feeling in me since yesterday. i wonder why. is it my mood swings acting up again? that's wad i hate abt being a girl - mood swings - even i can't stand it.

i don't know. probably i just felt worried for u? i thought maybe after today, i'll probably feel ok and not worried. it wasn't so.

i know i just got to trust in God. it's times like this i doubt about prayers; whether prayers really do work. i know prayers are real living miracles. but somehow, knowing it overtime and knowing it at that instant are just 2 different things.

but i know. i reflected. i still believe in prayer. even though i could say wad happened was just purely coincidental and nth to do with my prayes but i believe, everything happens for a reason. i prayed because God had a purpose to put that burden in me. prayers do work miracles. i'll still be praying for u because i believe in prayers.

it really affected me because there's prayer walk after prayer mtg. if i let that doubt stay in me, i would rather have not gone church. but thank God i pressed in. i didn't feel like singing the songs, worshipping God but i just pushed myself.

like last night, i was wide awake for no apparent reason. i decided not to do qt and went to sleep. somehow, just felt God telling me to read, just read the Bible and that portion of message from edwj. ok i relented again. at least i felt i was accountable to God.

prayer walk was alright. i felt i needed to pray and i really did pray in my heart. what the passage on the paper said was really true.(of coz, it was from the Bible) yea. God's heart is out to the lost. He really wants them to be saved. just felt that burden to pray everywhere i go, prayed prayers of blessing onto the ppl living there. and aaron prayed a final prayer. was real cool. haha (=

it's been a really weird week.