the joy of being sick

ahahaha...i wish i cld be joyful when i'm sick. God says, in everything give thanks. i wish i could give thanks everytime i fall sick instead of whining and complaining. haha. but i thank God anyhows, for preserving me till this very day. (=

it's been 3 horrible days being sick. thurs was a 'hol' coz i didn't have any papers. was supposed to go saturation and prayer mtg but i was too sick. i woke up with a terrible headache on thurs morning and decided to play games,since it was fm paper and i was almost done with fm. haha. ya. actually, i was alr coughing like mad before wed. hahaha... it took quite some time for the virus to activate tho. hmm. so i played winning e the whole morning when i woke up like 845 to study. haha! yea. morning wasted. and the headache was so bad, i was forced to eat panadol so that i cld study.

so in the end, decided i was too sick to go prayer mtg. i miss prayer mtg man. *sigh* i want to go for prayer mtg!!! aye. and raymond said there'll be a soccer match against meridian, think nx thurs. prob end about 6+7...got to rush down to church from there. hmmmm

it's been fun gaming. i don't think i'm attracted to games because of its fantasy,else i'll also be attracted to harry potter and stuff, but i guess, it's the thrill of being amazed by what simple graphics can do that keeps me going. haha. im more technical. so i tend to look at games in that perspective, which is kind of....haha....technical? haha.. oh wells.

if Jesus was still on earth, would He like to game too?
He probably wldn't coz wc3 is too bloody and He'll probably say it's satanic.
He'll definitely not try games like diablo or MUonline.
but would games like winning e be alright for Him?
then again He probably won't want to play master league because it's ENDLESS and that would deprive Him of spending time with God.
yea. Jesus would probably not like to game. it's too timeconsuming.

so sick of being sick. i was asking God last night, before i went off to lalaland. was asking God,"God y am i always falling sick?do You know how it feels like to be sick?"

well, qn no. 1. i don't have much of a say of my own health because it has always been so like-that. yea. i can just fall sick all of a sudden. i don't know why. but probably, God's trying to show me that even when i'm weak(physically), i can be strong in God. and God certainly gives me the physical strength to go through each and every day.

qn no. 2. to me, Jesus wouldn't know how it feels like to be sick because He is perfect. how can sickness enter Jesus' body? just doesn't make sense. so i was thinking, "God, do You know how it feels like to be sick? to have a thousand and one nails in ur head?" haha. ok. then it was time for God to prove me wrong. God reminded me of the sufferings Jesus had endured on the cross. it's worse than having that thousand and one nails in my head, it's worse than any physical sickness. yea.

everyday i learn smth new.