ahh.

not sleeping well
not sleeping comfortably
having moodswings.

i think i'm seriously stressed. stressed by what i don't know. i just know i must be super stressed coz i can't sleep! and not being able to sleep is a very big issue to me because i can sleep almost anywhere.

*sigh* maybe i'm just paranoid. maybe i'm worried over nothing. HAIZ.

when u've learnt to live without an important person in ur life, u'll be able to live without almost anybody in ur life.

i think fear is something that really grips u. when u have the fear of something, it eats u up and u start to be fearful of many things in ur life. u'll start to lose confidence even in the things that u are good at. u start to worry like never before and u get paranoid about what's going around u.

hai. i'm beginning to feel that i'm living this life by going in circles. i've made turns that were unnecessary and redundant. i've made detours that i shouldn't have wasted time on. if i had been decisive enough, none of this would have happened. i would prolly have picked up the pieces then and not waste my time going through this again.

but i believe everything happens for a reason. even if i chose it to happen now, there will be a reason for this to happen. hai. but what is the reason.

i try to wake myself up from this nightmare but i just can't.

i'll get over it. QUICK.