be it.

i want to thank God for the things that He has spoken to me during my exams.

and i figured that even if i do find the real meaning of life, i'll be disappointed. that's because i can never find the real meaning of life. haha. else i'll be God.

yea. and amidst all the disappointment. i think, best is to let go. let go and let God. i haven't been very happy lately. i think alot of joy has been lost. but God reminded me on the bus that i don't have to be laughing all day long to have joy. joy is not just about smiling and laughing. but still, i haven't been smiling and laughing lately. i haven't been happy. haha.

i think when some people made that much of an impact in ur life, it's hard to let go even though it's been so long. it's already so long. and i'll definitely not look back now. ya. i think. it's time i get over la. sometimes i think i'm so silly that i'm always the one thinking about these things when u don't even care. even right now i bet u aren't even looking back. u prolly never even regretted whatever u said. and the last written words to u were on ur silly birthday card. hai.

i realised that the things that cause problems in our lives are words or actions that we say or do in the heat of the moment. the things that we want to do so much yet know the grave consequences. and these are the things that will only give us a temporary kick but end us up in a lifetime of regret.

when the strings are pulling away, there's no point pulling them back. it's time i live a life of no regrets and no attachment and no worries and no looking back. just looking to God with nothing to account to anybody.

it's time i be myself.