one step at a time.

i have big dreams i wanna fulfill. i used to think dreaming big was useless because i never made the effort to work towards my dream. i would just dream and stop there. but now, i'm dreaming big.

i'm not dreaming for my future or dreaming of how much money i wanna earn, or how many children i'm going to have, though i've thought of that before. haha. i'm dreaming for my cell. i've had visions for west cell and i still hold on to my vision but i don't know if they are still dreaming that big dream. now. i have a big dream for sunday cell. but it isnt as big as that of west cell.

it's just a small thing, maybe. but i guess for this small thing, i wanna put in effort and stay focus to this dream. coz if i can be faithful in this little thing, i can be faithful too when i receive big things from God.

this hol taught me alot. it drew me closer to God, made me realise my priorities in life and made me think more maturedly too. of coz thanks to purpose driven life, my personal stands are more grounded. many things in life i didn't understand because i nv took time to rethink the rationale. but now, with all the time in the world, i've understood that many things which i took for granted and thought were stupid, were actually beneficial and helpful.

i'm not saying this in regret but i'm glad that at least at 19, i'm beginning to understand certain aspects of life. it's just the beginning of experiencing adulthood. hahaa..

i've realised how important family and friends are. but i've understood even more than when these people are not able to help me in my life, God can and God will.

the future seems so uncertain at times and sometimes it's discouraging because people whom i really really trust are not able to be there for me, people who are wise at giving advices aren't able to walk me through. but this just reminds me that i can't always depend on others to hear from God. i have to hear from God myself too.

i've been shocking myself a little during the past few days. i've been acting on promptings and having the boldness to do things that i have the urge to; things that i'd nv do in the past. nth to do with sharing the gospel tho, haha, but maybe just somethings that would touch someone's life? i hope.