mixed feelings.

sometimes i really don't know what to feel. to be sad, or happy, or moody or just plain happy. haha. but i guess feelings don't really matter at times. i guess what matters more is the state of mind, whether i know God is with me.

i'm stressed. haha. i'm stressed because of cell. this is like the first time i wanna be serious with cell. yea. and i guess this is the first time i'm gonna be serious with alot of other things as well. a drastic change to what i was last time; to just heck care everything else. hahaa... what got me to change my attitude? haha...

and having to be serious in all these things mean i'll be having lots of priorities in my life. and it also means i'm gonna have to juggle all these and strike a balance. i was nv good at balancing priorities. hahahahaha... because i'm an extremist, i'll either chiong until i'm drained or i'll just slack through. but i know neither of them is good and i know God is teaching me to strike balances in my life now. to balance my priorites now so that when i have greater responsibilities in the future, i'll know how to handle them and not just break down so easily. haha.

ya. so i guess, God's gonna teach me how to balance my life now. so maybe that's the whole thing God was trying to tell me. HAHAHAHAHA.

great. lol. it's always good to pen my thots; so that i think better. aahhaah...

i'll learn. (=