=)

when mavis said she wasn't going philippines in may because she couldn't take leave, i was quite disappointed. then i felt God asking me how much i really wanted to go. i had wanted to go back to philippines ever since i came back last may but now, the passion just suddenly died out.

then last friday, ps cat asked the few of us whether we wanted to go philippines for mission in may, but it clashed with my last paper and alan's birthday. so hope that she can delay for a few days and then go after their camp.

and today, glaycel came online like after so many months of not talking to her and not getting her emails coz she's too busy and we're both so busy. i suddenly miss talking to her and i suddenly remembered why i wanted to go back there; it was because of the fellowship. it is something different from singapore. the kind of fellowship i had always wanted, that i would never get bored of. and people there are so open (=

i think what added to today was also when i was talking to cherie chua on the way home. i haven't had such a good conversation for a long time. most of the times we get meaningless conversations that u do not really benefit much but maybe just make ur day happier temporarily. today was something different. that i helped someone in her thoughts (= or sometimes just being a listening ear isn't too bad.

but i will go back. will be praying about it also. will be going back for the people. even if none of my friends eventually goes (=