he blew it.

thank God for laureen and annette. i think i just lost all my patience today. i didn't even blew my top. i merely criticised, with no apparent effect. sometimes i don't even know why i'm doing all this, all this while wasting my time to think of a solution and u just blew it like that. great. and ps chng has to share on God giving chances to even the hopeless of all.

and to make things worse, it's friendship sunday today and rena came to church. it was supposed to be a very happy day and i already had everything planned out. but all my plans failed; literally all. none of all that i had expected turned out the way they should. and i was already so disappointed at 8 in the morning and into the day, things just got worse.

annette was telling me to have patience and ps aaron seems to be doing something about it. but i think i'm going to blow soon like if i don't sit him down and rail at him.

i just feel so horrible now; like i've done something terribly wrong. it's just a really bad day.