tired.

just been v tired lately. i wish i knew what was wrong too. haha...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

probably probably probably.
two lefts don't make a right
the "IF only"s and "BUT"s and "WHY"s and "HOW"s and sighs

maybe i just need some time off but it'll only bring me back to square one when i've alr come so far.i've been tempted to call it off. maybe it'll turn for the better.

guess i'm too tired. worn out by playing mind games. well, soon i'll be staying away for good (= even if it'll affect adversely, that's smth i think wld be for the good of everything, everyone maybe. it has made me happy, it has made me sad. it has made me feel blessed, it has made me torn. it has made me mature, it has made me meek. it has made me grow, it has made me halt.

i wldn't say every decision i had made was perfect and flawless. there were countless of times i regret making decisions. there were so many times that i had to face the consequences of my actions.

but, right now, i'm not thinking about the future. i've decided not to be foresighted now. not weighing the pros and cons or doing the checks and balances. i know my future lies in God's hands and especially that i need not worry about tommorrow for tommorrow will worry for itself.

i just miss the times, i really do. i miss those times.
but whatever happens... whatever happens...

this whole thing is just so CRAP.