dreams.

jeanne mayo shared about dreams last night.

i felt it was really awesome, as if God was speaking directly to me. she shared about hagar and i just feel that the story identifies with me. sometimes i'm just so lost that all i know is to hold on to my dream, just a little spark.

last night's worship was very different from the norm. it was a little harder to worship because of the music and it wasn't what we were used to have during worship service. it just taught me one thing - we have been too comfortable with praise and worship that we're unable to worship God vibrantly when the worship environment changes. before i went for the night concert, i decided in my heart that i'm not gg to be loud in my worship; i'm just gonna try to worship God with all my heart and soul, to set my heart right before i even begin to lift my hands. never did i realise that the music was gonna be so different. haha. but it was cool. the reason why i felt the sharing was awesome because God was already talking to me about my dreams during worship (=

i've always felt that before you can even be nice and caring to the ppl outside of church, there needs to be healing in church; the healing of hearts. alot of ppl in church are actually broken inside. there are many ppl who're struggling with issues and problems in their lives which others do not seem to be able to see their hurts.

i wouldn't call people who reach out to ppl outside church and do not do so for those in church as hypocrites for i understand that "there are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men." (1 cor 12:6) and ppl have different parts to play in the christian body. i'm supposed to do what i'm called to do and i shouldn't be comparing with others.

aha. and i haven't talked about my dream. well...

and prolly, i've found my ministry. just that it hasn't existed yet. ahaha...