rain

it was a long trip from harbour to central (=

the rain was pouring and i guess it rained pretty loudly. i couldn't really hear the noise coz my mp3 was plugged in. in the past, the rain always brought negativity along. it always felt kind of sad when it rains. today, it just felt very different. i felt glad, very glad. haha.

suddenly, things are beginning to look brighter. suddenly, my eyes aren't focused on the little obstacles in front of me but on the big path ahead. suddenly, life really seems genuinely happier. it isn't superficial.

to have someone to hold on to, to listen, to be there for me always. to guide, to protect, to cheer me up, it's more than i prayed for. i'm blessed and i know it. and for everything that God gives, i've to be a good steward because God gives, and God can take it away. it's more than just having fun, it's knowing what's best. haha. it's gonna be a long wait. but it'll be worthed it.

it was a happy day today because i received many praises. haha. i used to have ppl praising me last time but i would always reject them by saying 'nah, it's nothing' or 'no la, i'm not that nice'. but after one sermon a pastor preached, i begin to realise i need to receive praises. haha. it's a privilege to have ppl praising me and i needed to receive them with grace and with humility and not just reject them by not acknowledging their praises.

i was very encouraged because i've been feeling quite disappointed lately. have been feeling as though i keep doing the wrong things. really thank God for doing the right things at the right times, as always. hahahaha... =D