friends

friends are the next important people in our lives after our family. they take up almost a third of our lives. we find friends everyday. probably make new friends ever other week and perhaps fight with a friend like once in a million years.

how important are my friends? how much do they mean to me? to me, friends aren't my life. i don't live for my friends. i don't depend my whole life on them. to me, friends are precious people who enter my life. some make big impacts in my lives, others just accompany me through the different stages in life. friends are important people. even though i don't tell my friends everything, not even the closest of all, except Jesus, i don't have to ask them to cheer me up when i'm sad. i don't need to show a sign of sadness for them to make me laugh normally. it's true that i'm easily satisfied and happy. but, that kind of friendship. u can't find that anywhere else besides ur really gd friends. (=

i'm not like many, who share secrets with their best friends. rena doesn't know any of my secrets, not any that she even knows of. haha. maybe one. but she still doesn't know. hehs. not that i don't trust my friends to keep secrets but, it's just so not me to burden someone with a heavy secret. i'd rather not dampen the spirits of others. to others, it's being selfish or not trusting my friends, or even being prideful. to me, it's really not, it's really coz i don't want to trouble people. ever since the incident with wil, i kinda learnt my lesson.

yea. friends do come and go. but if they really go w/o a reason, it means that u have done ur part in being part of their lives. i realise it happens pretty often in my life. i'm there to help someone and when problem solved, we don't talk anymore. it doesn't make me feel bad that the person is ungrateful or what, it just doesn't matters.

i feel sometimes, i forsake my friends for alot of unimportant stuff. my friends understand my want of going church and all that, but i do feel bad if i've got to go and they're out having fun, the whole group of them. it's times like this that i've got to make sacrifices, to give up the time spent with my friends for something eternal.

i love my friends. i do. even though i may irritate y'all big time(i do that to many people), i still care for u guys as my friends.

i've ever asked God y there are so many people in the world when one day i was super irritated and stressed with all the "help wanted"s coming in. i just wanted some time to myself and be quiet and still for some time. that's being selfish i know. that's y now, i try to help. but if i can't, i really can't help. all i can do is pray.

and prayer works miracles.