glad

today was supposed to be a horrible day. prayer mtg was alright. just that somehow, things became more distracting after lunch. cldn't really concentrate during cet either. yea. then svc was terrible la. first time i felt so terrible during praise and worship.

aaron's msg was gd. i really broke down and cried before God. i guess i shld have done that a long time ago, rather than keep it all inside me. rather than keep asking God questions and not laying all at His feet. God's really gracious to me. like during the "altar call", i asked God again. i didn't exactly ask Him any particular qn, just kept asking why. there wasn't an answer. but God gave me a comforting verse. i can't rmb now.

after svc talked to alvin for awhile, had to find out some stuff i needed to know. then decided to talk at home on the phone.

then mom was using the phone for an hour, zeren used it for another 30min. so sian diao. had to wait so long for the phone.

called alvin and talked for 2.5hrs. hahhaa coz he cld only call weejun at 1am. so we talked from 1030 to 1. wow. record-breaking for me tho.

but ya. really thank God for alvin. at least i'm feeling much better now. (=(= even tho i didn't really get an ans, i know that God is in control of everything. i just know that my faith isn't misplaced. (= but i really felt so much better after talking to alvin. guess everything shld be alright. at least for me, emotionally n spiritually. this joy won't last coz it's not the joy of the Lord. all i can do now is to spend time with God everyday to draw strength from Him. (=

thanks alvin. (=