everything's changed

well not exactly, i'm still shouzhen.

but this ldrs' retreat was good. real good. it changed alot of things.alot of perspective and mindsets. and i left quite alot in m'sia.

before the retreat i asked myself "why have the retreat? no diff. i'll probably feel the same as i wld have before i went"

but thank God it wasn't as such. the retreat was good. made me realise alot of things. to focus on other things rather than on me,me,me. sometimes i focus too much on me, my problems, my future, my disabilities, my faithlessness. too much of me. God told me i should focus more on others. very true. haha. especially when it comes to my past and history, i tend to brood over it for weeks until God tells me to "STOP" yea.

i love Jesus. for the very fact He is real.

i admire ps danny for receiving new revelation everytime. it kinda remind me of how i used to be before i fell into this deep deep well with lots of confusion and arguments and boredom with God. but i thank God for His faithfulness. even though i had this difficulty in understanding God's timing and stuff, He never fails to assure me that He is there.

it's times like this that i feel God's presence(which people want it so much) that i want more than just His presence. i wanted to experience God.

God made me revive the need to encourage ppl, the joy of encouraging ppl. haha. there are just so many letters and cards for me to write now. (=