confessions.

and suddenly my mind goes blank.

when there's a problem, it's so easy to run away and avoid the problem, while here i am searching for the reason, unarmed.

it's so easy to have thoughts of backsliding, gaming, doing things that i ain't supposed to during this period of time; studies. it's so easy to run away and not turn back from all these. but no matter how much i hate going through this, no matter how much i long to just run away from everything, God has a reason for this; i believe. even though how much i want to give up on everything, which i've pretty much achieved it, there's that little faith that says "God has a purprose".

i don't know if i still trust that little voice.

it's time to let go. try as i might, it's not up to me to decide anymore.

someone up there has the authority over us all.

and i thought that this would only last a few days. guess i really needed the break.