tears

i find it so silly that i'm actually blogging about this now.

i thought everything was alright; the dust had settled.
i felt the burden off my back and the problem fade.
it was easy to smile and laugh again.
i thought i would be back.

there was more to it than what i had known.
a seemingly simple problem grew and complicated.
a whole doctrine, habit, character,
a wrong step, direction, goal.

i could not help but cry.
tears that welled up in my eyes for no rhyme nor reason.
when i saw you a thousand words came to mind
but i just couldn't find the right one to speak.

so many times i tried to say something.
many times i chose to delete the msg and leave.
things became so weird all of a sudden
i remember it was only a few seconds ago we were talking fine.

how silly it is that i feel sad whenever i see you.
a sadness that bore no hatred nor guilt.
wanting to speak to u like before
but, things have changed.

i can only hope and pray
that God will make a way
for you and me
our paths may never meet
until in heaven
along with the angels, sing.