reality

perhaps the reason why i felt so sad was because i took the guilt on myself. i felt that everything was my fault and i needed to apologise and clear things up. it's been 2 weeks. maybe i'll just have to accept reality. i'll leave it in God's hands. God will make a way if it's His way. i pray that it wldn't affect your faith.

i chose this path. maybe it's my way out. even if things don't work out well, i still got to face my reality. i hope u understand.

it ain't easy to fake a smile. maybe i give up too easily. i can't hold on to u any longer. i'm gonna give up. i'm sorry. there'll be less one person in ur life.

i thank God for speaking to me. it's strange how God works. He's just like a Father, who doesn't talk much but answers where it hurts most. i hope i can cling on to You forever. i hope that this time of testing will just fade away soon. i believe that if God has brought this into my life, He'll give me the strength to overcome it.

part of my life is now gone.