honesty

that was what jo shared during cell today.

true. if ur honest about everything to God, God will too be honest about everything with u. it's only times when u tell God how u feel that God speaks to u and answers u. even though God is omniscience, we can't take it for granted that He knows everything and will comfort us and answer our cries if we don't cry out to Him.

but, how honest will God be to u? will u be able to take the honesty?

i believe that whatever God brings into ur life, u'll be able to handle it, with His strength of course. i believe that God still stands beside u and give u the grace needed to overcome all obstacles. however, i'm not sure how long can i hold on anymore.

it isn't easy to go back to God after being so far apart and away for so long. it isn't easy to start the habit of reading God's word, even tho i know i have to, again when everytime u read God's word, so many things start to flood ur mind.

i'm starting to doubt God, prolly not God, just whatever God told me 2 years ago. mebbe i wasn't feeling God; i was feeling something else. still, i cldn't deny the peace. if that's what God told u too, i can't 100% say that it wasn't from God. but why are we going thru this again and again if it's God's will?

i'm just so confused and lost. i can't rmb the promises anymore. i wish God would just speak to me again.