love

today, i shall just simplify my blog entry.

God speaks to me especially during worship. there was worship you alone in church earlier on and God spoke again. i recalled the time when i thought the church was just filled with cold people who didn't care whether u existed or not. and God struck this thing in my mind; i did not feel loved because there was no love in me. it brought me back to this particular page in edwj that one can never love if he/she has never experienced love; and perfect love can only come from God Himself.

when one has experienced God's love, their lives will never be the same again and they will never walk the path they'd walked before they experienced God's love. God's love has the ability to change lives because His love is gracious and merciful, abounding in every way. when one has expierenced the true manifestation of God's love, nothing else will satisfy, and nothing else will matter.

God reveals Himself differently to different people. to me, He is a God of grace and a God who sets people free. no one can understand the grace and freedom God has given me. everyone has their limitations. i just happen to have more. haha. but thank God that He gave me the understanding of this phrase that "obedience is the key to freedom". i have limits physically, socially, of almost any kind and my life is pretty much bounded. it's hard sometimes with so many limits that i really tell God i don't have much of a choice in my life and sometimes i just resent to fate.

but God has been very graciously seeing me through the phases of my life. it's something that people don't see and will prolly not believe and it's a very special thing between God and me because only He knows. even with limits, God has provided me with things that go beyond the limits; like money. i can be contented with what i have because of all His blessings. i accept my limits because i have experienced the freedom within these limits and God has just been so wonderful in blessing me.

it's the love of God that sustains me and keeps me going even though things may look bad and things may not go my way. His love pulls me together and strengthens me, giving me the courage to look forward to tomorrow. like even tho there are so much bad times at work, His love still pulls me through, helping me to forgive and forget. right now, it's just a little bit more effort of not gossiping in office. haha. i never gossiped in school. but i don't know why i have the urge to just say a few lines here and there when i'm working.

it's very easy to experience the love of God; just love God wholeheartedly. it's just 3 simple words but so difficult to live out. but no matter how difficult the road may be, it's worth it all.