the greatest thing

this is a very much overdued post. but i still have to post it.

The greatest thing in all my life is serving You

The greatest thing in all my life is serving You

I want to serve You Lord

I want to serve You Lord

The greatest thing in all my life is serving You

we sang this on friday during leaders' trg. ps aaron loves to sing this song. but everytime he sings, i find it so hard to follow through; singing the greatest thing in all my life is serving God. i would then find a hundred and one reasons to believe and truely agree that the greatest thing in all my life is serving God. i had not then and that was why i couldn't sing with all my heart. but last friday was different; i sang it and i sang with a broken heart. because even though serving God contributes to one of the worst times in my life, i can't agree more that without those times, i wouldn't be able to experience the greatest joy, and greatest times of my life. without struggling through the hard times, i wouldn't be where i am today 'enjoying' the 'fruits' of my 'labour'. haha...

and God reminded me once again that even as a seasoned leader, i need to be broken before God. so what if i had gone through trials over and over again, it doesn't make me independent. i still have to rely on God's strength and His wisdom because i cannot do much on my own strength. we are all like vessels or rather like that alabaster jar that mary bought to wash Jesus' feet. if she didn't break it, the fragrance wouldn't come out. similarly, if we aren't broken before God, our fragrance won't come out. God isn't able to use what we store inside if we aren't broken. we will just be show pieces on the mantel.

i also want to thank God for giving me the first part of the cell vision. sometimes i feel guilty that words or things just appear now and then without me having to fast and pray or seek God for an hour in prayer and stuff like that. i would love to spend time in God's presence but sometimes i just can't afford. but here's what God told me while i was bathing last night. hahhaa... "building ur character for God". and i thot, wow. y didn't i think of that before. hahahaa..

God is great. i really can't ask for anything more. even last cell's worship was great (=