haiz.

things were starting to get better... starting to put God first into my life again when everything else had been taking the place of God.

enjoyed reading all the stuff i wrote when God used to speak to me. i want that kind of intimacy again.

have the feeling of going for morning worship on morning. try to wake up xtra early to go the extra mile. i wanna go all the way for God. i wanna get to know Him more then i believe He will give me the boldness and wisdom to share the gospel with others. i've got to get my relationship with God right first before i even think of doing His work and serving Him. i shldn't be like Martha instead i shld be like Mary who chose to sit at Jesus' feet and listen to Him first then serve Him.

actually it's all my fault. i'm not taking the blame but really. i know i have to do this but i just didn't.

i think i really lag. i'm only reacting to it like after 45 min.

it's not a big deal. yea. but i'm responsible.

this just have to happen at this time.