happy v-day

if u read both my blogs, u must be wondering y 2 entries of the same title. well. ya. i don't have an ans. hehs.

valentine's day this yr is kind of special. a special day to make me rmb the happy times in my life, the sweet times, and the loving memories.

indeed 4 years is a long time. to think 2 yrs ago i just took my o's. man. i'm so old now. 4 years have passed with the twinkle of the eye.

3 years ago, v-day was a v memorable one for me. it created a big impact on my life. and i'm living the aftermath of the impact. one cld say it was gd, one cld also say it was not.

i daren't think what it wld be like if i had gone my own way that special day. maybe things wld not turn out well. God's always moulding us to be more and more like Him and i certainly agree that 3 yrs have changed me and i'm almost 180 degrees turned ard. my thinking, attitude has been changed by God's grace and mercy. i'm really really glad that i accepted Christ back into my life 4 years ago.

being more mature in Christ doens't mean we become more rational in our thinking. i can't make gd decisions, apparently. i can't seem to make up my mind.

probably u might be thinking wad's the pt in remembering all these stuff since i'm alr on the verge of giving this up and putting it away. coz somehow, the memories came back. wondering whether it was coz it's v-day and love's in the air.

i donno. it can't be that coincidental. yea. i tried praying. i tried talking things out. i tried analysing everything that happened.i can't fight it anymore.the truth hurts. it always does. and being truthful to myself is even more hurting. my heart just seems to go against my mind.

if there's one thing i really want now, is that this will be protected and kept safe in God's hands. that, i'll be more than happy.

true love is the feeling of togetherness in our hearts that we feel each other even tho we aren't side by side.