amazing grace

wow. i'm tired. it's so tiring studying. haha. i'm not the least surprised.

but yea. it's times like this that i need to take a break and do smth relaxing yet useful like blogging. hehs. and today shall be a reflection.

stayed in school a lil longer to study. A's are worrying me, well they are starting to get the jitters on me. i've never been so "scared" by an exam in my whole life; not o lvls, not promos, not BTs. the A's just seem so scary. maybe it's because i don't know my work. yea.

well, it's good to feel the study mode and study esp when ur supposed to be studying. (= thank God (=

got to church quite early and i realised that it has been a long time since i last went for youth svc or prayer mtg. meryl told me the bubble tea shop closed about a month ago and i haven't realised that till now. it's been a long time but i'm glad everything's cleared up, well almost.

it's good to be back, back at prayer mtg and hopefully youth svc this sunday. it felt kinda comfortable worshipping during prayer mtg today, something i haven't felt for a very very long time. it was just amazing to praise and worship God again. (= and i thot i would nv be able to pray like before. it's good (=

today was another of those days that God told me to trust in Him. i've always wondered why God always say "trust in Him" when He can tell me so many others things. it's always been a problem in trusting God though i don't really realise it. maybe verbally it's easy to say "yea. trust in God" but deep down, my actions tell that i don't really trust God at all.

i remember sharing this during cell one friday: be still and know You are God.

ever wondered why the psalmist said "know You are God" and not "feel" or "hear" or anything else? it's because sometimes we depend too much on feelings and our circumstances. it's true that Jesus was 100% man and 100% God but because we are so used to having being around people, we kinda take Jesus for a 100% man, not realising that we can't take Jesus totally as a human as He is God. God is someone whom we can't fathom. and so the phrase "know You are God" spoke to me that we should just trust in God and have faith that everything will turn out alright because God, the mightiest being in the whole universe, is in control of your life. ain't that amazing and assuring?

God did assured me that prayers do work miracles and He brought me back to the time when smth similar happened. it was assuring because this time i was really clueless. well, God is always so amazing and so unpredictable. He can do the extraordinary and do the miraculous. God has His way of doing things, and it's great (=

it was kinda saddening, especially recently when it started to come back after a week or so. truely, great is the measure of our Father's love.

how could i forget His love
how could i forget His mercy