He is the reason to live

accompanied chon to her boss' church; convenant evangelical free church and they sang the song 'we are the reason'. reminds me of avalon. haha.

today was one of those 'divine appointments' with God. God spoke alot to me. i really can't remember what. but it surely brought alot of assurance and hope and of course confidence to move on to 2009. especially after the zone planning with daniel and the rest, God uncovered alot of past hurts that i chose to bury instead of dealing with it and i've forgotten the cause of many. that's why i choose not to know alot now.

during qt one of the days, a verse stood out, "cast all your cares on Him for he cares for you".

sometimes i get so caught up with life and forget the fact that God cares. it's always God loves u and God loves everyone. but somehow, God cares meant so much more than God loves. it's been a rather tough year honestly; i just never voiced them out. it's truely God's grace and love that brought me through till this day.

despite times when i thought i bo chap, they were times when i cared the most. the simplest of things can make me worry and i never realised it till this day. when God said cast all your cares on Him, i was like 'how? really how?'

when i never studied in the past, i knew how to cast my cares on God and trust in Him totally. now that i actually study hard, i really don't know how to cast my cares on Him and trust in Him totally. things seem more impossible than before, strangely.

things will be more different next year, i can feel it. maybe it's because i'm growing? haha. but i feel i've grown a little today. decided to let go of certain things like games and "me-time".