the weight of the world

"About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, 'Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?' -- which means, 'My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?'"

--Matthew 27:46

that was the moment when Jesus bore the sins of the world; the past, present and future sins of the world. that was when He bore the weight of the world on His shoulders.

i was at the back again and this time, God opened my eyes to see what He wanted me to see. in the past, i would wonder why people could worship God so passionately and vibrantly and yet live a life perpendicular to that, and i would be judgmental. now, i just forget about the whole thing altogether and focus on the minimum.

however, it's also important that i view the youth as a whole and not just focus on my cell group alone, no matter how tempting it may be. yesterday, God showed me what i needed to see. i saw a changed life and felt the hurts of many. i saw the potential the youth had if people would just be genuine. i was guilty of nonchalance.

i had always wanted to help but i never knew how. i never liked people who gave judgmental stares as if everything u did, right or wrong, wasn't good enough in their eyes. unconsciously, i was that person. because of prejudice, i gave people the looks they didn't deserve. everyone deserves a second chance no matter how bad their past was because God is a God of second and third chances.

and sometimes, the only thing we can do, and have to do, is simply pray. and sometimes, that's really more than enough :)